Another Post About My Troubles With Guys

So I was had a sleep over with my friend last night (actually she is on my couch sleeping at the moment) and once it got past midnight my dad made us turn off the lights and "go to sleep" so instead we had idle chit chat. And out of the blue she decided that I like this one kid that we are friends with. And I denied it, because that's what I do. But with further prompting I gave in and said that I liked him, but only a bit. (Fun fact! This kid is dating someone else) Not enough to date him, because that would make things awkward. And I've known him forever and a day, and dating is just... eh. But that brought me onto the topic of: I Like People And Then Don't Want To Deal With It, So I Stop Liking Them. So I'll like a guy for two days, and then decide that it's too much of a hassle, so I stop. Doesn't really work, because it doesn't, but after a while I do forget about them. I think I do it because everyone I'm friends with makes fun of you if they found out if you like someone. And we also make up that you are deeply in love with someone, who you really aren't. (Lemonade Kristen?) And it's all in good fun, and in the end we are all happy for you if you do like someone, and eventually date that someone. But it is still annoying to have to deal with the taunting, and the general not letting go of the topic. So I squash the feeling, just because I don't want to deal with anything, and it is slightly uncharacteristic of me to date people. The only time I did was a disaster.

Another thing we talked about was how our group of friends are so connected to each other in weird ways, and if someone were to leave it would throw everything off, at least for a little while. But it's not like there are mini groups who happen to share people (like a Venn Diagram) but all intersecting lines that connect to everyone. And you don't like every one, I mean I have a deep rooted hatred for some, but you are still connected. And I like that, and to me it seems that we are the only group of kids in the school who do that (then again I am closed minded, but we shall ignore that for the moment). And we also are one of the few "sections" who intermingle guys and girls, not only dating, but with friendship. Which I think is awesome. Leave your thoughts please!